Happy New Year!
I am having some issues with my computer, so I decided to forgo doing a video and give y’all a written update. As of this morning I weighed in at 203.5! Yay! That makes a total of 34lbs of weight loss since I started this journey last July.
Last month was okay for me, because I think I’ve only lost about 4 lbs since the last time I did an update. Over the past few weeks I have gained a few pounds and then I lost them again. I think what I experienced, which is what I’ve been experiencing over the past few months, is the struggle in being consistent with my eating habits. Sometimes I get blinded by my weight loss and forget that my bad habits and spiritual issues are still fresh. I have to continually make the right choices everyday at every meal. This is where I fall short. I make better decisions when I’m in control of when and where I eat. However, when I am with family or friends it is easier for me to become distracted or to yield to the pull of my bad habits. Its almost as if I go into auto pilot mode and refuse to acknowledge that I am walking into sin with each additional piece of food that I eat. I tell people that this is the simplest hard thing you will ever do. All it requires is self-control. That’s a simple concept to understand, but a difficult one to follow through on.
Just to give you an idea of how much I eat I might have the following amount of food during a given day:
Sausage biscuit & Small Hot Chocolate – McDonald’s @ 8:00-8:30am
Turkey Burger & Fries @ 1:00pm ( I usually only eat the burger because I know I won’t be hungry for the rest of the day if it eat fries too.)
A Snack…maybe… @ 7:00-8:00pm
No games, that’s it. I am not trying to starve myself. If my body asked for more food I would gladly provide it with more food! But, how little I eat has become frustrating for me and also a point of difficulty when it comes to being obedient. I will say that I probably eat so little because my metabolism has slowed down. I work at a desk all day and I don’t exercise. My body doesn’t require much food to burn up as an energy source during the day. I do realize that i need to eat a more balanced diet….its coming, I promise!
I am also realizing how my motivation for this journey has to be set more upon glorifying God than losing weight. I am at a comfortable place and a few people have looked at me crazy when I said I wasn’t done losing weight. (I plan on stopping, when my body stops). If I wanted to I could just maintain and overeat only enough as to not gain anymore weight. But that’s not the goal. The goal is a deeper relationship with God, spiritual and emotional health, and the ultimate glorification of Him by reflecting his character in my everyday life. “Be holy, as I am holy”…”so since you have been raised with Christ, so set your mind on things above Col 3:1”. Glory is the goal, not my skinny dreams! I have to remember that and I have to make sure I’m feasting on the Word daily. If my mind isn’t right then my actions will be wrong.
So all in all, the first six months of my journey have been very eye opening and freeing. I have a long way to go, not necessarily with my weight but with my ability to be obedient. I am so grateful that his truth has resulted in me 34lbs lighter! I still can’t believe i’ve lost that much weight.
This year I want to continue on but to add in exercise and healhty eating. I want to add those items because I want to be fit and I’m tired of eating like crap! I’ve been to the gym three time so far this year. I’m trying to take it slow so I don’t get caught up in exercising like I used to.
Well, that’s it for this update 🙂
Peace and Love,